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being special

for me, the scariest part of any serious relationship is perhaps, in the end, not being special enough to remember. instead, you become romantic riffraff in the significant other’s ocean of memories, only being remembered when the person is forced to do so with a simple “oh yeah… her.”

i think my biggest fear is being forgotten — not being especially sweet or nice or good-looking to be deemed… well, special in the other person’s eyes. i also fear constant comparison to past serious partners, and how “good” they were in the various physical and emotional categories, and not being able to measure up.

how do most people cope with this feeling, if any of you do at all? am i the only person who has this nagging fear?